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• I figure Avatar will win so I'm going to bed. #Oscars #
• Kate Winslet is like "Can I just go sit down now and leave him to his babbling?" #Oscars #
• Jeff Bridges won. #Oscars #
• @ScottFilmCritic Means blonde. Very, light blonde. in reply to ScottFilmCritic #
• RT @falsemirror Are we doing this Jedi council bullshit like last year? FUCK THIS. #oscars Hahahaha. in reply to falsemirror #
• So it's red dress night? #Oscars #
• No idea what any of the Best Actor nominees movies are. #Oscars #
• Anyone else sort of weirded out that the head V alien always knows what we're watching? #
• This is the most confusing speech yet. #Oscars #
• Okay Martin and Baldwin in snuggies was funny. #Oscars #
• Food Inc. will win? #Oscars #
• Avatar wins for Visual Effects. No surprise. #Oscars #
• Marco Gia whatah for what? #
• What's wrong, Mr. Clooney? #Oscars #
• RT @ebertchicago No Farrah Fawcett in the memorial tribute? Major fail. in reply to ebertchicago #
• @dorothysnarker She was in that Burning Bed (or whatever it's called) movie. in reply to dorothysnarker #
• Dancing? *sigh* Back to watching "Goodfellas". #Oscars #
• They do practice reading this stuff before they present, right? #Oscars #
• In 1939 civil rights activists picketed the Academy Awards because of Gone With The Wind's racism. (It won ten Oscars.) #
• James Taylor tribute? What's happening????!!! #Oscars #
• @emokidsloveme Yup. Not good on her at all. in reply to emokidsloveme #
• Wish they hadn't put that lady in red lipstick on Sandra Bullock. #Oscars #
• @kitson That Twilight stuff was on there too. Not scary. in reply to kitson #
• @WubsNet Yup, I switched channels in hopes it would end soon. in reply to WubsNet #
• @RyanOConnor @divarobbie Did "Silence of the Lambs" win or just get nominated? in reply to RyanOConnor #
• Ah, Kathy Bates looks pretty. #Oscars #
• I wish they'd teach these young actresses to stand up straight and have good posture. #Oscars #
• And Desmond's partner said he had to wear the a suit to protect from being "infected out there". #Lost #
• Oh yeah, so what about the numbers on the computer that Desmond has to push the button for? #Lost #
• E! has some (awful, girls) shoes on and just said "guys love them." :-/ #
• 12 weeks until Mister is here! #
• You're right, friend who use to show up unexpectedly to any home or public place I hung out; I won't tell you where I live. Privacy is good. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Hurt by Nine Inch Nails http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=47557134 #
• Watching "My Life as Liz." #
• The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather!!! #
• I used #Shazam to discover The End Is The Beginning Is The End by The Smashing Pumpkins http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=47153446 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=20089675 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Hang Me Up To Dry by Cold War Kids http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=44846132 #
• My mother is so good at miscommunication. #
• Sawyer's still at the barrack's? RT @Josh_Holloway http://twitpic.com/16q3kl – in reply to Josh_Holloway #
• "Those black bits in bananas – are they tarantula's eggs?" Had to say it. #mighty_boosh #
• Why do they have Boston Legal on TV Land now? Don't we have enough law shows that our one station of sitcom reruns can do without? #
• Class over. I told them how I think Julian Barratt (Howard Moon) misused the word cacophony in the Pocket Book of Boosh. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Rocking Horse by The Dead Weather http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=49183692 #
• Remind me to not give some kind if b.s. advice to my kid whenever they tell me something. I don't want him/her doing the same "yeahokbye!" #
• @kurtmichruss Exactly. We're talking Bizarro Land L.A. where everyone rubs into everyone else randomly. in reply to kurtmichruss #
• I don't get it. The "Twilight" guy, Robert Patterson (?) looks like a lost Oasis brother. And therefore the appeal is…? #
• Black hair, blue eyes. Anyone want to guess that David is Kate's son? #Lost #
• Jack's ex wife can't be the father of David, his son, because she's not scheduled to return. But it is someone we already know. #e #lost #
• RT @orlandosentinel 911 calls released in SeaWorld trainer's death. Go to http://www.orlandosentinel.com to listen. in reply to orlandosentinel #
• It was 68F in here this morning. I may as well get up and start the process of waking up via caffeine intake. #
• What else was I going to do before bed? Oh yeah, I remember now… #
• Jerry Seinfeld on Dave Letterman – it would be funnier if it were about iPhone users. But yeah, it's all true. We don't let it go. Ever. #
• How can it be 76F in here? I'm freezing! #
• Ah Jay Leno back on The Tonight Show – back to normal. #
• I can already imagine that in the future we're going to have something even more revolutionary than 4G. #sprint #
• My mother tells me how good my hair looks. When I tell her I changed shampoos she says "it looks so much better than it ever did." Whatever. #
• I used #Shazam to discover The World Has Turned And Left Me Here by Weezer http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=217020 #
• Sitting in the school parking lot, playing with my iPhone. I really will miss this car when I move. But oh well, we'll get a new one later. #
• I spilled my coffee in my excitement to get this back to my office. Thank you school bookstore! So awesome… http://tweetphoto.com/13131525 #
• @stephenfry Whoa! Cool! How'd you do that, Mr. Fry? in reply to stephenfry #
• @aplusk If it's not on Wikipedia then I don't know about it. in reply to aplusk #
• @SomaCowGeoff About what? in reply to SomaCowGeoff #
• RT @ebertchicago Tweet righteously, and ye shall be retweeted. in reply to ebertchicago #
• @pickassoreborn Nomnom thank you! in reply to pickassoreborn #
• It's crazy – an old episode of "Roseanne" was talking about "the recession" this morning. #oxygen #
• So want this: NEW! LOST Word Cloud T-Shirt, ABC TV Store – New Shows Lost http://digg.com/d31KSij?t #
• Coolest, creepiest episode of the season yet. 10 more until 2 hour finale. Awesome. #Lost #
• That baddie on the right looks like Dave Grohl. #Lost #
• Um, Kate, you shouldn't be hanging with these guys now. #Lost #
• Oh boy, here we go. Creepy Sayid. #Lost #
• No, no you don't have to get Claire! #Lost #
• Yeah, I think it's safe to say that's Bad Sayid. #Lost #
• Whoa! That was crazy too! So is this Bad Sayid? #Lost #
• Oh okay, as MST3K would say, "Thank you, movie!" (In this case, thank you show!) #Lost #
• What's with the baseball? #Lost #
• Now V is commenting on my Final Season? #Lost #
• Yes! Oh great, who's this? What the heck? This running into each other bit is making my head swim. #Lost #
• Oh I can't stand that guy! Shoot him Sayid! #Lost #
• Ford advert – why would anyone want to feel like they're sitting on an air hockey table, exactly? #
• See, now you made her mad, Kate! Well, she was mad already. Bad Locke's coming and people we don't care about at the temple will die. #Lost #
• Shut up Kate! #Lost #
• Oh good. Claire's turned into Ophelia. #Lost #
• So now we're going to try and kill this guy? Can't we make up our minds? And who are these people at the temple anyway? #Lost #
• Oooh, Bad Locke has Jedi mind tricks! He's got himself a little posse of baddies now. #Lost #
• Well, that didn't work. Plan B anyone? #Lost #
• Whoa! What the heck? That was crazy!! #Lost #
• Oh good he may think it's Kate! Nope. Okay good. #Lost #
• Okay, wait, wait, wait. If he speaks it's too late? And he's evil incarnate? And he's free because Jacob is gone? #Lost #
• Things have changed. Now we need the evil interrogator to help us. #Lost #
• "Only the ones who won't listen." Locke is so awesome. Well, Bad Locke is a baddie but still awesome. #Lost #
• Because of a baseball? He can go now? #Lost #
• Kick his asphalt, Sayid! #Lost #
• Ah, this is sad. Poor Sayid. #lost #
• Nadia? What's this about? #lost #
• WIN AN OPPORTUNITY TO BE AMONG THE FIRST TO SEE
  EXCLUSIVE FOOTAGE OF THE OPENING MINUTES OF SEASON 6. #Lost #abc http://tinyurl.com/yl6qxe6 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Terrible Lie by Nine Inch Nails http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=247246 #
• The kings of viral video are back with a brand new vid: http://digg.com/d31KMni?t #OK_GO #
• Gorillaz – Stylo – YouTube Premiere! (HD): http://digg.com/d31KRAe?t #
• Oh please let this vet visit go well. So over it. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Sick Muse by Metric http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=48662342 #
• Looking down at the crumbs on the ground http://mltp.ly/7ABeaTK #
• Looking down at the crumbs on the ground – In my classes, I’ve been talking about how when an author uses a… http://tumblr.com/xbf6zh01x #
• I'm curious; is America the only place where one parks their car on the front lawn? #
• I used #Shazam to discover This Fire by Franz Ferdinand http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=40539786 #
• Thinks she detects a hint of springtime in the air. #

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• I figure Avatar will win so I'm going to bed. #Oscars #
• Kate Winslet is like "Can I just go sit down now and leave him to his babbling?" #Oscars #
• Jeff Bridges won. #Oscars #
• @ScottFilmCritic Means blonde. Very, light blonde. in reply to ScottFilmCritic #
• RT @falsemirror Are we doing this Jedi council bullshit like last year? FUCK THIS. #oscars Hahahaha. in reply to falsemirror #
• So it's red dress night? #Oscars #
• No idea what any of the Best Actor nominees movies are. #Oscars #
• Anyone else sort of weirded out that the head V alien always knows what we're watching? #
• This is the most confusing speech yet. #Oscars #
• Okay Martin and Baldwin in snuggies was funny. #Oscars #
• Food Inc. will win? #Oscars #
• Avatar wins for Visual Effects. No surprise. #Oscars #
• Marco Gia whatah for what? #
• What's wrong, Mr. Clooney? #Oscars #
• RT @ebertchicago No Farrah Fawcett in the memorial tribute? Major fail. in reply to ebertchicago #
• @dorothysnarker She was in that Burning Bed (or whatever it's called) movie. in reply to dorothysnarker #
• Dancing? *sigh* Back to watching "Goodfellas". #Oscars #
• They do practice reading this stuff before they present, right? #Oscars #
• In 1939 civil rights activists picketed the Academy Awards because of Gone With The Wind's racism. (It won ten Oscars.) #
• James Taylor tribute? What's happening????!!! #Oscars #
• @emokidsloveme Yup. Not good on her at all. in reply to emokidsloveme #
• Wish they hadn't put that lady in red lipstick on Sandra Bullock. #Oscars #
• @kitson That Twilight stuff was on there too. Not scary. in reply to kitson #
• @WubsNet Yup, I switched channels in hopes it would end soon. in reply to WubsNet #
• @RyanOConnor @divarobbie Did "Silence of the Lambs" win or just get nominated? in reply to RyanOConnor #
• Ah, Kathy Bates looks pretty. #Oscars #
• I wish they'd teach these young actresses to stand up straight and have good posture. #Oscars #
• And Desmond's partner said he had to wear the a suit to protect from being "infected out there". #Lost #
• Oh yeah, so what about the numbers on the computer that Desmond has to push the button for? #Lost #
• E! has some (awful, girls) shoes on and just said "guys love them." :-/ #
• 12 weeks until Mister is here! #
• You're right, friend who use to show up unexpectedly to any home or public place I hung out; I won't tell you where I live. Privacy is good. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Hurt by Nine Inch Nails http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=47557134 #
• Watching "My Life as Liz." #
• The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather are coming! The Dead Weather!!! #
• I used #Shazam to discover The End Is The Beginning Is The End by The Smashing Pumpkins http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=47153446 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=20089675 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Hang Me Up To Dry by Cold War Kids http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=44846132 #
• My mother is so good at miscommunication. #
• Sawyer's still at the barrack's? RT @Josh_Holloway http://twitpic.com/16q3kl – in reply to Josh_Holloway #
• "Those black bits in bananas – are they tarantula's eggs?" Had to say it. #mighty_boosh #
• Why do they have Boston Legal on TV Land now? Don't we have enough law shows that our one station of sitcom reruns can do without? #
• Class over. I told them how I think Julian Barratt (Howard Moon) misused the word cacophony in the Pocket Book of Boosh. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Rocking Horse by The Dead Weather http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=49183692 #
• Remind me to not give some kind if b.s. advice to my kid whenever they tell me something. I don't want him/her doing the same "yeahokbye!" #
• @kurtmichruss Exactly. We're talking Bizarro Land L.A. where everyone rubs into everyone else randomly. in reply to kurtmichruss #
• I don't get it. The "Twilight" guy, Robert Patterson (?) looks like a lost Oasis brother. And therefore the appeal is…? #
• Black hair, blue eyes. Anyone want to guess that David is Kate's son? #Lost #
• Jack's ex wife can't be the father of David, his son, because she's not scheduled to return. But it is someone we already know. #e #lost #
• RT @orlandosentinel 911 calls released in SeaWorld trainer's death. Go to http://www.orlandosentinel.com to listen. in reply to orlandosentinel #
• It was 68F in here this morning. I may as well get up and start the process of waking up via caffeine intake. #
• What else was I going to do before bed? Oh yeah, I remember now… #
• Jerry Seinfeld on Dave Letterman – it would be funnier if it were about iPhone users. But yeah, it's all true. We don't let it go. Ever. #
• How can it be 76F in here? I'm freezing! #
• Ah Jay Leno back on The Tonight Show – back to normal. #
• I can already imagine that in the future we're going to have something even more revolutionary than 4G. #sprint #
• My mother tells me how good my hair looks. When I tell her I changed shampoos she says "it looks so much better than it ever did." Whatever. #
• I used #Shazam to discover The World Has Turned And Left Me Here by Weezer http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=217020 #
• Sitting in the school parking lot, playing with my iPhone. I really will miss this car when I move. But oh well, we'll get a new one later. #
• I spilled my coffee in my excitement to get this back to my office. Thank you school bookstore! So awesome… http://tweetphoto.com/13131525 #
• @stephenfry Whoa! Cool! How'd you do that, Mr. Fry? in reply to stephenfry #
• @aplusk If it's not on Wikipedia then I don't know about it. in reply to aplusk #
• @SomaCowGeoff About what? in reply to SomaCowGeoff #
• RT @ebertchicago Tweet righteously, and ye shall be retweeted. in reply to ebertchicago #
• @pickassoreborn Nomnom thank you! in reply to pickassoreborn #
• It's crazy – an old episode of "Roseanne" was talking about "the recession" this morning. #oxygen #
• So want this: NEW! LOST Word Cloud T-Shirt, ABC TV Store – New Shows Lost http://digg.com/d31KSij?t #
• Coolest, creepiest episode of the season yet. 10 more until 2 hour finale. Awesome. #Lost #
• That baddie on the right looks like Dave Grohl. #Lost #
• Um, Kate, you shouldn't be hanging with these guys now. #Lost #
• Oh boy, here we go. Creepy Sayid. #Lost #
• No, no you don't have to get Claire! #Lost #
• Yeah, I think it's safe to say that's Bad Sayid. #Lost #
• Whoa! That was crazy too! So is this Bad Sayid? #Lost #
• Oh okay, as MST3K would say, "Thank you, movie!" (In this case, thank you show!) #Lost #
• What's with the baseball? #Lost #
• Now V is commenting on my Final Season? #Lost #
• Yes! Oh great, who's this? What the heck? This running into each other bit is making my head swim. #Lost #
• Oh I can't stand that guy! Shoot him Sayid! #Lost #
• Ford advert – why would anyone want to feel like they're sitting on an air hockey table, exactly? #
• See, now you made her mad, Kate! Well, she was mad already. Bad Locke's coming and people we don't care about at the temple will die. #Lost #
• Shut up Kate! #Lost #
• Oh good. Claire's turned into Ophelia. #Lost #
• So now we're going to try and kill this guy? Can't we make up our minds? And who are these people at the temple anyway? #Lost #
• Oooh, Bad Locke has Jedi mind tricks! He's got himself a little posse of baddies now. #Lost #
• Well, that didn't work. Plan B anyone? #Lost #
• Whoa! What the heck? That was crazy!! #Lost #
• Oh good he may think it's Kate! Nope. Okay good. #Lost #
• Okay, wait, wait, wait. If he speaks it's too late? And he's evil incarnate? And he's free because Jacob is gone? #Lost #
• Things have changed. Now we need the evil interrogator to help us. #Lost #
• "Only the ones who won't listen." Locke is so awesome. Well, Bad Locke is a baddie but still awesome. #Lost #
• Because of a baseball? He can go now? #Lost #
• Kick his asphalt, Sayid! #Lost #
• Ah, this is sad. Poor Sayid. #lost #
• Nadia? What's this about? #lost #
• WIN AN OPPORTUNITY TO BE AMONG THE FIRST TO SEE
  EXCLUSIVE FOOTAGE OF THE OPENING MINUTES OF SEASON 6. #Lost #abc http://tinyurl.com/yl6qxe6 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Terrible Lie by Nine Inch Nails http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=247246 #
• The kings of viral video are back with a brand new vid: http://digg.com/d31KMni?t #OK_GO #
• Gorillaz – Stylo – YouTube Premiere! (HD): http://digg.com/d31KRAe?t #
• Oh please let this vet visit go well. So over it. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Sick Muse by Metric http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=48662342 #
• Looking down at the crumbs on the ground http://mltp.ly/7ABeaTK #
• Looking down at the crumbs on the ground – In my classes, I’ve been talking about how when an author uses a… http://tumblr.com/xbf6zh01x #
• I'm curious; is America the only place where one parks their car on the front lawn? #
• I used #Shazam to discover This Fire by Franz Ferdinand http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=40539786 #
• Thinks she detects a hint of springtime in the air. #

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In my classes, I’ve been talking about how when an author uses a clear blue sky, it’s supposed to represent clarity of conscious, being open minded, accepting God’s grace, hope, new life and opportunity.  It won’t be long until my mister is here with me for a bit.  Then as soon as I can get myself sorted and moved, I’m out of here.  It’s not a place you want to make your life permanent;  not that I can see.  It’s a visiting place or a stopping point.  It’s been fine and I like it but there’s so much more out there (and absolutely nothing here to keep someone interesting in keeping up residence).  So each day I’m itching more and more to get out.  I’m bored beyond belief most evenings and it’s to the point I get so listless and feel defeated.  I spent hours in bed the other day, just to get Monday going so I could work and have something to do.  I definitely need to move.

So, until then, I’m trying to get this cat passport stuff organized but the vet’s have already given me a couple of hindrances.  First of all, they didn’t tell me to not feed the cat after midnight before he got his blood test done.  Now I have to go through that whole painful event of getting him into the cage and to the vet’s.  It’s traumatic on both of us (plus my pocket book.)  Then I’ve sent in forms that I got online that is for the EU Pet Passport and the blood test and the vet’s verification, etc.  Some of those things ask for the cat’s microchip number and the vet’s signature.  I forwarded those to the office in email, thanked them profusely for their help and bother they have to go through.  But last night I got an email with, “no, don’t send us these, just bring what you need in.”  Um…did you even look at the forms where it says “must be typed and printed by the vet”?  I’m not putting my whole trust in this office crew that they will do what I know needs to be done.  All I can do is my part;  research what papers need to be in order and stay on top of the vet’s to make sure it’s done properly.  I’m not trying to be overzealous or pushy but this is my life and my money I’m spending to undertake this whole thing.  Having a cat sitting in quarantine at an airport 4 hours away from home is not something that I want.

Ah, home.  Isn’t it a nice word?

I’m glad that it will be a place where I can work full time for more than the compensation for Unemployment (and that’s for a Master’s Degree to teach at a state college, by the way).  I’m glad that it will be somewhere I can spend my days and nights with my mister instead of trying to keep my brains occupied with reruns on television.  I’m glad that I can be away from this place I have no attachment to anymore.

Anyway, aside from the pet rigmarole I ordered a couple of books on journaling (I’ve not been reading as much as I could be but the daily hard cover journal I’m at least keeping up with in small paragraphs most days.)  I now have Time to Write to Yourself and The Many Faces of Journaling.  I know the descriptions make it seem as if it’s a self healing process that needs to be learned.  I’m just interested in getting ideas and seeing what other people write in their journals.  I’ve always been interested in novels that are written that way and that type of narration in movies and television.  Since I’m interested in it now and want to read about it, I may as well encourage the habit.

• I used #Shazam to discover Put Your Hands Up For Detroit by Fedde Le Grand http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=44511135 #
• Repo Man trailer: http://shrten.com/l6v
  Not sure about this one. #
• RT @cpheadlines White Stripes at Monster http://bit.ly/d1VOwY in reply to cpheadlines #
• Have the coffee, watching Travel Channel, getting awake and motivated to do work today. #
• @jack At the Olympics? Yeah, I'm noticing that too. in reply to jack #
• @CarltonCuse I'm glad. in reply to CarltonCuse #
• "Lead singer Lacey Mosley doesn't necessarily believe that makes Flyleaf strictly a Christian band." They're just bad. {shudder} #
• "We couldn't find anyone named Jorge García." Dude, that's not cool. #Lost #
• Report: Marie Osmond's Son Commits Suicide http://www.tmz.com #
• Samsung Android Super Hero advert http://bit.ly/bmfeZi #
• "16 and pregnant" is such a scary and depressing show. #Mtv #
• Watching a show about Ninja restaurant in New York. #travel_channel #
• Updating Norton and HP software on my laptop while watching the news about Chile and Hawaii. #CNN #
• I used #Shazam to discover The Denial Twist by The White Stripes http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=40979842 #
• Next album purchase is definitely The Xx. #
• I used #Shazam to discover Heart Skipped A Beat by The xx http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=49967702 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Turn On by Fischerspooner http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=10303690 #
• You keep a whale in a fish tank for most of its life, make it do tricks for snacks, then want to euthanize for acting like an animal? #
• The White Stripes – Under Great Northern Lights: http://digg.com/d31JsO0?t #
• San Diego Reader | Who's Jack White?: http://digg.com/d31JsEQ?t #
• I used #Shazam to discover Combat Baby by Metric http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=40540085 #
• I used #Shazam to discover 16 Military Wives by The Decemberists http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=42921263 #
• I used #Shazam to discover L.S.F. by Kasabian http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=40407649 #
• I used #Shazam to discover We Share Our Mothers' Health by The Knife http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=45140282 #
• Listening to new Smashing Pumpkins. "Widow Wake my Mind" #Sirius #XM #Billy_Corgan #
• I used #Shazam to discover 20 Dollar by M.I.A. http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=46688659 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Fell In Love With A Girl by The White Stripes http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=5171797 #
• Oooh! Tricky Jin! There's the friend! Oh heck what's that about? Awesome episode! #Lost #ABC #
• Bad Locke's coming? #Lost #ABC #
• Okay. What's up with this? The Numbers. Crazy! #Lost #ABC #
• Oh come on! Why is it this convenient to run into one another? #Lost #ABC #
• Is this like one whole allegory for "the story of the guy who can never find his dad"? #Lost #ABC #
• Oh yeah, that girl. Shannon. #Lost #ABC #
• My friend…Jacob? #Lost #ABC #
• What's with the gross, guys?! #Lost #ABC #
• You'd really just put that on a bookshelf? #Lost #ABC #
• Oh I get it! She's like the new French woman. #Lost #ABC #
• @cronopia Thanks! in reply to cronopia #
• A candidate. Cool. Hurley has the use of The Force and a Sixth Sense. #Lost #ABC #
• Whoa! Whoa! David? #Lost #ABC #
• Jacob could be the bad guy. He is scary with all that creeping around. #Lost #ABC #
• I think Jack is trying to compete with Sawyer for shirtless scenes. #Lost #ABC #
• I used #Shazam to discover Let's Make Love And Listen To Death From Above by CSS http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=44476008 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Islands by The xx http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=49967709 #
• @feint It doesn't take me more than an hour because I'm making shorter posts. Takes a while to get them posted to all my blog servers though in reply to feint #
• I used #Shazam to discover Frisk by The Big Pink http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=49881991 #
• I used #Shazam to discover Good Morning by Rogue Wave http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=51436026 #

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• I used #Shazam to discover About A Girl by Nirvana http://www.shazam.com/music/web/track?id=20021938 #
• Owns a lot of junk and the cards, photos, letters, clothes, gadgets, journals and books are the only things worth hanging on to. #

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As I sit here in the dark at 10PM, not doing anything productive other than typing in this blog, I’ve assumed a sense of complete stagnancy in my life here.  Today, I was driving with my mother around town and I just all of a sudden realized, “Oh yeah, I really am alive, and really driving this car and really living here…even though it doesn’t feel like it.”   It’s harder and harder to keep on being here and I cannot wait to get the heck out.  Not because I am angry and mad about where I live, it’s just nothing real.  I don’t feel alive.  I feel like I’m in Lost, in an alternate dimension where my real self is somewhere else.

So as I’m trying to get to my somewhere else, where my real life will be lead, I’ve run into a couple problems.  First of all, you can’t take a pet on any air carrier out of any city you dang well please.  And if you live in Florida, you can’t bring the pet over during the summer.  Completely crazy.  So now I have to figure out how to get this cat over there.  I don’t even know what city I can land on.  I don’t even know if he can go once his 6 months waiting period after his rabies test is up.  All I know is I am not going to wait any extra days or months if I can absolutely help it.  Aside from the fact that I can’t leave school in mid-term, I also don’t want to sign another lease or go without full time work any longer.  Not here.  Not on my own.

And that’s my update for today.  I’m still reading my journaling books and I’m still going to start putting together one with pictures but I just haven’t yet.  I’m keeping up with the regular daily one which I write in at the end of the day before bed.  I’ve figured out that I have to read and get myself sleepy before trying to sleep.  I’m always thinking of something else I could do before I sleep or getting up 12 times for random things before actually feeling that drift into sleep.  The being alone bit is more and more evident and it’s harder to feel comfortable when you want to be with the person who’s missing you too.  Each night I look around and think about packing up, driving to the airport and just leaving.  But I know I’ll get there.  This is just the waiting time.

So I’ve been writing more in my journals at home.  I’ve been reading about journaling and I’ve found that if I just sit and give myself time to write there’s plenty to say.  This week I’ve been kind of downcast as I could say.  It started with getting ready to go to a baby shower;  seeing old friends and knowing I had to be happy for the mother to be.  And I am but it made me feel a bit more lonely.  Me and my mister still live apart and while I know I’ll be with him soon, it’s still hard to be here day after day alone.  I’m bored of the television. I’m bored of Sims 3.  I was incredibly tired for my last class and I kept forgetting what I was trying to say to them.  I was grumpy and agitated with myself.  But I know I’ll get over it;  that’s the beauty of being past all the depression and knowing that being in a funk and worn down doesn’t mean you’ll be caught in a web of despair.  It is this time of transition that is hard some days.  I know where I’m going but I’m not there yet.  If I didn’t have to wait on the cat I’d be ready to take off in a few months.  I just want this nice, clean start and right now I’m in this empty flat all by myself.  I do the washing up, I read my books, I write, I do my homework, I grade papers, I get ready for class, I nap a lot but none of it is the same as having someone at home who cares about you.  I’m ready for that.  The only excitement I have is knowing my life will be with him – the rest of this is the equivalent of a tacky magazine that I can read while sitting in a waiting room.  The key is to just wait well and my time to get to where I’m going will come.